for I do feel hollow, shallow in my heart
for I kept thinking about playing around
and doing unimportant trifles or entertainment
to run away from reality
yeah
I want to run away
maybe to the outer space
I am tired of expectation
tired of being active and passive at the same time
tired of the optimistic thinking about challenge
those words I usesd to convince myself
god damned I am really afraid of uncertainty
and I am freaked out
I get to accomplish two tasks during a month
I don't believe I can both do them well
and I kept playing these days
and now only half month left
I hate to say nothing but regrets
those are rubbish,garbage,trash...
I want to write something else
but not in this moment
because I can't sleep again
and I am really pissed
I took a pill for my allergic rhinitis
at 2 o'clock and don't eat any food or pills for
protecting the stomach
I don't feel well
not only physically but also spiritually
I don't know why I feel lost
because I thought I always know what I am doing
and what I am going to do
but now I can't get away the blueness of lacking something
although my English is poor
sometimes just have the impulse of using it
I don't know why
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